Chapter 7 (tick tock)

I returned from Tesco's Pharmacy with treasure! (insert Pirate laugh, or maybe Gollumesqe giggle, you know the old "my presssssious" routine), PYRIDOSTIGMINE the first of my drugs.

For the first time in my life I read the leaflet carefully, all of the possible side effects combined will be a holiday if this gets rid of my double vision and speech impediment.
Lining up my first 60mg tablet up in my pink (defy stereotypes) pill cutter and .... smash it to dust! 2 more attempts with the same results, then, using a kitchen knife I succeeded at my first attempt, neatly dividing a pill into two 30mg pieces.
My initial dose is 30mg 3 times a day, they suggest that it will take between 30 minutes and an hour to kick in and should last about 4 hours.
If this works it should allow me to get back to my classes, and that gets more important with every passing day.
The Holme Grange possibility gnaws at me as I just discovered that yet another of my warriors might be heading there in September (if I told you who I would have to kill you, which frankly would require more thought now than a couple of weeks ago). If this treatment kicks in quickly I may be able to approach the school before the end of term,  although Doctor Armstrong described this as 'the sticking plaster' part of my treatment with the steroids that follow next (hopefully tomorrow) being the treatment that deals with this at a more fundamental level.


So as the candle sputters and the glowing embers light my ravaged features...... tick tock.... I sit back like some latter day Dr Jekyl waiting for the Pyridostigme to do it's dark work,

Except of course its a bright sunny afternoon, daytime tv is in full tourettes mode screaming on about PPI have you been misold? Car Insurance anyone? How about a payday loan? Some kind of loser fest I can feel it drawing me in!
It scares me to think I might descend to the point where I become part of their target audience,

I want my job back and I want it now.

ps Thank you, if you are one of the people that have sent me your support and encouragement it really has helped keep me focused on getting through this and has given me a real sense of purpose in my job.
It is fantastic to realise how much judo means to my children.
I vow to redouble my efforts to help their judo development as soon as I'm back.

pps Just in case you think I'm getting a bit hippy with this and losing that natural savagery of mine.... if you are one of the people who are too embarrassed to get in touch remember its not catching, and at some point I will hunt you down like dawgs and say "Hello how are you"?
If this is embarrassing how is that going to feel?

 mmmm  feeling better is it the drugs or the fighting talk?

NO! I REALLY AM FEELING BETTER!!